I'm getting to the point where I'm getting frustrated with studying for the bar, and I'm not even half-way through the study program. It's going to be a long summer.
But I am doing my best and getting in as many hours of studying a day that I can. But I still feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm averaging about 6 or 7 hours a day of studying, but I really need to be doing more like 8 to 10 hours to be able to learn everything that I need to learn. But the more I try to study, the more I get distracted. And the more I get distracted, the more I daydream about August when I don't have to study anymore.
On top of that, I've already had two anxiety attacks. I've never had an anxiety attack before now, which is strange to me since I went through three years of lawschool which is a rather stressful and anxious experience. So I don't know what is causing the attacks. All I know is that the first one was so terrifying, and since I didn't know what was going on, I honestly thought that I was going to die. haha! But the second attack, I knew what was happening and did my best to keep myself calm and ward it off. I succeeded for the most part, but I struggled for the next 4 hours to keep my breathing in check and keep my panic reflex down.
So please pray for me. Pray:
1. That I can get into a steady study schedule and study enough hours in the day to learn all the material.
2. That I actually learn the material and continue to improve throughout the summer.
3. That these anxiety attacks STOP. I don't have time or patience for all that crap.
4. That I continuously give this exam and all my worries to God every day.
Thank you for reading my blog. I don't know if I have told y'all that or not. I love all of you.
*Anna
You haven't been out of class for a month yet and it already sounds like you need a vacation!
ReplyDeleteAre there other people around your area studying for the exam? Have you considered finding or forming a study group? Even just meeting for one day for x many hours might help you out. You'd be able to bounce ideas off of someone else and they can help you grasp concepts you aren't sure about, just like any other type of study group.
Anna Grace, you are by far one of the most intelligent people (persons?) I know. If anyone can do this, you can. You got this!
If you start stressing too much, happy thoughts! The beach, the mountains, your friends, your family, a cute puppy dog, a cute guy, coffee... Count your blessings, literally! Say, "One... I'm alive. Two. I have a wonderful family..."
I love you! This summer is going to fly by and you'll be done before you know it! Have faith and I'm praying for you always!
You can do it. Just hang in there!!!
ReplyDeleteGood Luck Anna..you remind me of my college days. Btw your posts are very light and nice to read
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I'll be praying for you.
ReplyDeleteI know all to well the pain of panic attacks. They can be a real nuisance and be very terrifying. You can do this! You have a lot of people out there rooting for you.
I also understand the studying issues...I'm obviously not studying for the bar....but I started a correspondence course to study medical transcription. I'm finding it hard to focus and study though. Summer is very distracting...anyway, I sort of feel your pain. ;)