Saturday, December 25, 2010

My Christmas...

So I’m sick for Christmas. Not good. But I did have a nice day other than the sickness.

My gifts:

* My first pair of Sperry Topsiders (Angelfish in Greige Nubuck/Tattersall color)
* A silver-colored business card case with my initials engraved in the cover
* Cosmetic brushes
* Nine West sunglasses
* Get Smart movie
* Enchanted movie
* The Goonies movie
* A new set of ear bud headphones
* A portable speaker for my i-pod
* A whole stocking full of chocolate
* A large picture of Audrey Hepburn to hang on my wall (lovely)
* Two sets of Vera Bradley padded hangers. So pretty.
* A pair of Isotoner leather gloves with faux fur on the inside

And we ate cinnamon rolls for breakfast, BBQ sandwiches for lunch, and cheddar potato chowder and cornbread for supper. All interspersed with chocolate at random times. :)

Oh, and the coolest part is that it snowed. In Georgia. On Christmas Day. We havent had a White Christmas in 130 years. So yeah. It’s a big deal. :)

How was your Christmas?

Wednesday, December 8, 2010


My first final is tomorrow, and surprisingly I'm not nervous or stressed out. Maybe it's just old hat to me now, I don't know. Or maybe I have accepted that I will not make high grades in law school. However, I feel like I will be doing my best when I take these exams.

Sure, I could have studied more, read more, slept less, stressed more, outlined more, memorized more, etc. But I am happy with myself, and I refuse to put myself on a guilt trip and get upset.

I realized the other day how different law school graduation in May will be from undergrad graduation. When I graduated undergrad (Summa Cum Laude, 7th in the class), I was berating myself for not getting all A's - for not working harder in the 3 classes that I made B's. For not being 6th, or 5th, or 4th, or 3rd.

Yet this graduation, I will be pleased as punch to be graduating at all. I'm pretty sure that I am somewhere in the middle of the class, and I'm ok with that. I won't be counting how many people are in front of me, I won't be wishing I had more extracurriculars on my resume, and I won't be upset with myself for not having special honors or achievements. I'll be smiling just as much as #1 when I walk across and take my diploma.

Law school has been the hardest thing I have ever, ever done. I have stretched myself FAR beyond the point that I thought I could stretch. I have pushed myself, abused myself, gone from emotional highs to very dark lows. But I've made it through.

And looking back, I'm proud at the strength that I've shown. Would I ever pick this road again if I could do it over? Absolutely not. But I am surprised at the tenacity and the inner fortitude that law students are forced to develop.

I have changed in ways that I don't like. I've become less emotional (almost cold sometimes), and I've become even LESS sociable that I was before. I don't trust people, and I have very little hope for this world.

But I feel like, once I graduate, I will be able to find the fun side of me again. I'll be able to be almost anything that I want to be and do anything I want to do. I'll have free time again. I'll be able to read novels again. I'll be able to have a few hobbies again. I'll make money again!

And I'll be back home.

All that's standing between me and home is two more rounds of finals. :)