I'm getting to the point where I'm getting frustrated with studying for the bar, and I'm not even half-way through the study program. It's going to be a long summer.
But I am doing my best and getting in as many hours of studying a day that I can. But I still feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm averaging about 6 or 7 hours a day of studying, but I really need to be doing more like 8 to 10 hours to be able to learn everything that I need to learn. But the more I try to study, the more I get distracted. And the more I get distracted, the more I daydream about August when I don't have to study anymore.
On top of that, I've already had two anxiety attacks. I've never had an anxiety attack before now, which is strange to me since I went through three years of lawschool which is a rather stressful and anxious experience. So I don't know what is causing the attacks. All I know is that the first one was so terrifying, and since I didn't know what was going on, I honestly thought that I was going to die. haha! But the second attack, I knew what was happening and did my best to keep myself calm and ward it off. I succeeded for the most part, but I struggled for the next 4 hours to keep my breathing in check and keep my panic reflex down.
So please pray for me. Pray:
1. That I can get into a steady study schedule and study enough hours in the day to learn all the material.
2. That I actually learn the material and continue to improve throughout the summer.
3. That these anxiety attacks STOP. I don't have time or patience for all that crap.
4. That I continuously give this exam and all my worries to God every day.
Thank you for reading my blog. I don't know if I have told y'all that or not. I love all of you.